Help yourself

Time and time again I find myself here. Without work and at the mercy of my dyslexia. Today without my friend and co-collaborator of the past few years business has been harder than ever. Having a co-worker who I could talk through my disorientation with was invaluable. Without being able to secure enough project work to support the team I'm on my own again and  its tough.

I called the Dyslexia Association helpline to ask for help and I never manage to actually ask for it more over I made excuses, stumbled, got rather upset and politely ask if they could recommend assistance. Ultimately I just end up in tears and unable to work.

I try. I really do. I'm just not very good at finding the help I need. 

(Sept 1st 2015) I might have made progress. Access To Work, a department of the DWP (Department of Work and Pensions) provide accesses assistance to Dyslexics. I'll let you know how it goes.

(Sept 3 2015) I've spoken to Arts Council England about their access program to help artists with dyslexia to complete their application forms. I'll let you know how that goes too.

 

Just stay still - Dyslexia

All day! and if they aren't dancing on one page they are startlingly absent from my mind all together leaving me staring at a blank text box with its vacant void burning into my retinas. I have two really good projects I need to complete funding applications for and one I missed coz I couldn't get my words on the page. I feel like a bloody jester hopping and skipping in a vain attempt to land something sharp, coherent and insightful. As a jester, the funny bit is me. The pathetic helplessness that dyslexia subjects me to. I can perform the mundane I can do the job I pursue with passion yet can I write down the construct to express in words what it is I do and there for why anyone should pay me for it? NO. Its so frustrating.